Yesterday, Julie and I had people over to watch the games, cook and just catch up with old friends. The first time in a very long time. Little pieces of life are starting to come back together, but a part of me is having trouble adapting to normalcy again. I tried to entertain the best way I knew how with, food, booze, football and some dirty jokes.
But I sit here awake, too early on a day where all I wanted to do was lay in bed and catch up on my DVR. Analyzing or over-analyzing my interactions yesterday, I don't know, I loved being boisterous around friends, because well they are friends and that's what I do. But a part of me feels like I have a second chance at a fresh start, and I wonder if I want to take a more laid back attitude to life?
I'm just feeling out of place this morning, like something is wrong or missing and almost guilty, but I can't pin point why I feel this way.
I'm over-analyzing, I know it.
Trying to find my new calling is a tough up-hill battle, I want to, and feel obligated to have my new career be in a field that can help others. The non-profit is wonderful and exciting, but it's not paying the bills and every day I feel more compelled to research jobs in the medical field.
I'm not the brightest man out there, so medical school is out of the question, but nursing? Maybe medical technician? Shit I just don't know.
This point in my life, I just feel a calling to help others.
Suggestions?
Hello friend,
ReplyDeleteYou should check out http://www.gildasclub.org/ we have one in Madison and it's such a wonderful place. I noticed that there isn't one in your area yet and what better way to focus your energy then to get one built. After it's built you can always help out to feed the internal hunger to help others. Just a thought of course.
If you need anything let me know!
Rob :)
I think nursing or going into research might be good options. Nursing can be very rough at times, and very rewarding at time. Coming from having a mom go through chemo and radiation, having a nurse that went through it and survived is very comforting! Nursing is not something that can just be learned though - you really need to have a passion to help and be able to relate to patients, which I think you have. Just my thoughts. I'm a little biased though, given my current occupation and situation... Glad to hear your body is recovering! Stay strong!
ReplyDeleteLiz
I think you should take up producing music at least part time for now. I just bought Ableton and it changed my life in literally a day. We need to talk tunes homie!!
ReplyDeleteAll the ideas are great ones, Liz, good ole' mama Fogg has been a nurse for well over 20 yrs. and I feel like I get what she's doing, and feel like it would be something I can do and know I am making a difference.
ReplyDeleteJesse, hell yes..... I just need to keep raising the funds and I'm in business, I'm actually teaming up with a local DJ down here to work on gigs and blending. However all we have at this time is a PA system, 2 MacBook's and Djay.
Guarantee I will get things rolling as soon as I possibly can.